if you had read my earlier entry of sometimes, ignorance, is bliss, you'd know that i had some rough patch. different issues have different impacts on people; i suppose this one had me real bad. as i had mentioned in the entry, it drove me to almost lose my mind and my ground.
the entry is gone now because i wrote a lengthy post on it but decided to save it as draft instead. i'd say its painful for me to remember yet i dont want to forget that such phase ever existed.
im dealing with it quietly, its like im blocking the feeling away.
and i kinda dont like it because it makes me feel like im not true to my own feelings.
but then again, not that anyone would care, isnt it.
ah well.
i'll just