its been a while.
nothing massive happening these days; thats the reason for the lack of updates.
furthermore, lately i tend to feel a lot of mehz and sighz. no, theres no hormones acting up. its just that, sometimes life can be quite overwhelming for better or for not-so better, as a wife and a DIL. hence i try to avoid making my opinions and feelings known to someone or anyone.
as i said to my mum, its better to be quiet and be judged as such, as compared to keep talking and unknowingly have my words or actions used against me.
but then again, there were a few occasions that i really didn't say anything and yet some person gave hurtful remarks. so either way, i supposed that i can be at a losing end. just gotta choose the lesser vulnerable way, i guess. and to just suck it up.
i teared in one of my visits to my parents', and they felt for me. i swear, at that point of time, i wanted nothing more than to be back at my parents', to be in my comfort zone. literally comfort zone. i wanted badly to retreat into my room and my bed and just stay away from any other person.
nobody said it was easy. everybody said to have lots of patience, in and for whatever that could be coming my way.
i could only ask for a stronger heart.
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