following a doctor's confirmation couple days after the test kit, abz and i were more than elated to know what we are expecting our firstborn.
the first thought we had was whether we should announce this to the world, or not, or when. we decided to wait for the second trimester but still were gonna let our immediate families know. at least the mothers. i for one, would want my mother to know so she can advise me on the dos and donts, and that if I'm not well, she'd be the next person i'd run to.
it felt like the moment we knew of our pregnancy, changes came in like its high tide. sometimes there are two or three changes happening at the same time that i was trying so hard to grasp whats going on in and to my body.
as at 16-Oct-2015
a quick review showed that the baby is the size of a blueberry. and that became its nickname with some friends and family.
Body Changes
i used to be able to stand Kkukie's smell. now i can't. now i cant lie down next to his cage, nor pat him. and i felt bad because i felt like i ignored him a lot. i had to stay away from him because his litter smell, his cage and anything around him makes me nausea. the poor furbaby had been mewing at me so many times, looking at me with his big round innocent eyes, for so many days but i can only look for him from afar. oh it pains. its not that im staying away from him, i just cannot take the smell. i had to get abz to takeover the furrent duty while i sit on my bed watching Kkukie. my poor furbaby.
i get dizzy spells. the moment i woke up to the time i sleep. its like an ongoing thing. and im not sure if i can even take panadol to ease the pain.
morning sickness doesnt end at all. generally it starts its shift only in the late night or wee morning, its highest peak around 2am-5am every night. during that time, its hard to sleep as i will be tossing and turning, trying to get rid of the nausea feeling. i ever cried because i just wanted to sleep but i can't.
in the day, i get tired easily. i wanted to only lay in bed. i didn't have much energy to do house chores. the feeling is kinda sucky because i know i have work to be done but i can't get around to do it because for some unexplained reason, i get exhausted just like that.
Diet Changes
everything taste bland to me. its like nothing suits my taste buds anymore. i felt like i needed anything sugary or spicy just to ensure i have flavors on my tongue.
cravings? none. but i noted my need for food are mainly those that are flavored to counter the blandness that i have. for eg, mee goreng, fried fish soup. otherwise, i'd be snacking on cereal.
my best friend is NanoNano sweets for now, cos its tangy. anything else makes me throw up.
otherwise im having fruits and asam powder every other day.
i havent had my usual hazelnut coffee since we found out. i knew i'd throw up even with just a sip. instead im more drawn towards milo, bandung, lychee, and specifically meiji strawberry milk.
Attitude Changes
i definitely got cranky easily.
once i was really really hungry that i whined loudly in the car and then just went to sleep, refusing to participate in any conversation. i needed food almost immediately all the time.
im also more quiet now. perhaps because i dont want any superstitious effects on my baby. hence the best is to keep quiet, yes? but some days are just so hard to keep quiet and i just had to let off some steam and then regret a tiny bit later.
so yeah, changes that came in so fast as soon as we found out.
it definitely wasnt easy.